i dont know.

welll i dont really know. she said she would try to see me. that she would bust a mission to see. she said all this after that day. that day when she just walked away. maybe its because she thinks that sorry isnt enough. really it was alright. i understand why she left.... but it seems like she just said that she'll bust a mission just to make me happy. feels like she really isnt. :\ i know im being a little too negative. but right now. it really seems like it. its like, why would she out of nowhere say she would do that. i know shes a really random girl ahaha thats what i love about her but still. she hasnt said she would bust a mission to see me in a really really long time and i thought she would never say that to me again... gahh. its so confusing. right now ill just believe she will bust a mission just to see me like the old times (even though its probably gonna be a long time from now since shes super busy now). ill shall just believe she would... cause i love her. actually i love her tooooo much. even though her heart doesnt belong to me anymore...

"hey you! yeah you! i like you.."

Hurts

you know what hurts? well let me tell you. well you know when you get the guts to say that one phrase again. you know that crazy phrase. you know that three word phase that has so many meanings to it. yes "i love you". well yeah when you get the guts to say that to that one person again.well yeah you say it to her and right after you just freeze up. and time just stops. you sit there. you wait and wait. but nothing ever comes. you were just waiting for her to say it back. to at least just say it. but it never comes. it crushes you. you feel as if your heart has just dies. feels like all that hard work to just say those three special words was for nothing..thats what hurts.