| TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood, | |
| And sorry I could not travel both | |
| And be one traveler, long I stood | |
| And looked down one as far as I could | |
| To where it bent in the undergrowth |
right now there are two roads diverged in a yellow wood. its either go to burroughs and start all over again but lose my friends, or stay in providence and keep all my friends but make my family spend more money on me when we are going through these hard times. i really want to take both roads but both of them have consequences. lose my friends or ruin my family budget. im gonna be thinking about his decision a lot.
but other than this decision i also have another problem...i want to say i love you to her but yet i know it will ruin everything again but if i keep my mouth shut she will never know. i was so close to telling her that i loved her last night..but i stopped myself before i did. i know we are both trying to get less attached to eachother and i think its working out...but yet i also think it isnt. trying to get less attched to the person that you cared for loved trusted and the one you talked to the most is impossible. i know nothing is impossible but this...this is impossible. but right now i will accept the fact that we are just "friends" now. and i will choose to not hurt her or break her heart ever again and to do that i should get unattached right now. i will try my hardest to. i do not want to make promises because like she told me....
"never make a promise that you know you cant keep..cause it will just hurt the one that you are making the promise to"
I'm sorry that you're going through all this tough stuff right now. I really do hope that theres anything at all i can do. That is a really hard decision /:
ReplyDeleteand about the second paragraph. all i cansay is "wow..."
"don't take the path you want to go; instead do not go on any path go your own way and leave a trail"
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